Well for starters, my name is Alyssa. I am a sister, a daughter, a niece, a granddaughter and a friend. I'm 21 years old and I have a lot to talk about.
I love my family!
I have a beautiful mother who has been there for me even though I am a brat half the time.
This man right here has stepped up to be the best dad any girl could ask for.
Oh the monkeys of the family. MaryGrace (10/L) and Kathleen (7/R) are two of the tiniest, sweetest, most adorable girls I know.
The Brother. Jonathan Kaleb Murphy. What a goofball and a great young man!
Besides trying to be a somewhat good big sister (which I fail at more than anything), I lead a very amazing, fun filled, interesting life.
NOT
I wish I did. But to be honest, I am living with my amazing grandmother, jobless, heartbroken, recently lost a whole entire group of friends, constantly hungry, and debating on whether I should leave the good ole town of Tyler or stay. You see growing up, I always thought being 21 would be amazing. I could drink, do whatever I wanted, wouldn't have to answer to anyone but myself, and it would be awesome. Well, its not. It sucks. Not every moment is awful but growing up is for the birds. Who knew?! Oh yeah, you did.
I'm going to go ahead and throw this out there, I am in no way, shape or form a comedian. I think I am at times butttt, I'm not. I just talk to myself way too much and I realize if I don't get these thoughts out of here, I'm going to go crazy (which some may claim I already am..but that is upon their discretion). Oh and I'm ADHD so it may get random and jumpy but know I'm trying here.
I'm lost in this huge world. I constantly feel like I'm drowning and no matter who is willing to help I cant seem to grasp on tight enough, and I slip right back in. So bare with me. I'm only 21 and right now it's just me and this keyboard. So when I say I have absolutely NO IDEA what in the heck is going on, take it seriously. I don't know the first thing about a blog. I know the background looks pretty and I'm sick of trying to write in a journal because I am sooo critical of my handwriting (just ask my mom). Yes, that was a serious statement. Plus my childhood friend (Lauren) told me I should just put my big girl panties on and write a blog. I swear I laughed at her for years but here I am. And to be honest it actually feels good. I don't need a huge audience, or even anyone to see this. I just need to be able to express what is going on in my life and maybe someone out there is in the same boat. If so, thank the Lord cause I sure could use some advice.
Bare with me. It's not only a journey for you to read and comprehend what is going on inside my brain but its also a journey for me. Welcome.
Yes, it's a big world out there and it is easy to get lost. Look for those who can help you hang in there. I promise it does get better.
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